It'll take too long to tell you everything that's happened so I'll give you the brief story. My fingers are twitching so bad, I can't wait to tell you guys!

I died. I think Zero might have typed up something about it. I have to say I'm actually a little angry at her for getting on here because it's MY stuff. I know back then it was more like OUR stuff, but I'm real again. Oh, nevermind, I don't understand what I'm saying.

So, I died. I ended up in a place very dark but because of the state I was in I didn't need a light. I had to eat stars. STARS! And I met a really nice guy. Chess. He's one of my best friends. And he helped me get out of being dead. Oh, and I also forgot to say that I was able to watch everything that went on while I was dead, because I could look through little holes at people, and that's how I got back, but that would take too long to explain.

I'm back!!!! I'm in a body. I spent two days living the old life she used to have, and everybody called me "Amber" and her mom always looked at me funny so after school one day (school is very scary, by the way), I didn't head back Amber's house but I went looking for someone instead.

I looked in the old Toy Store, but I couldn't find a way inside. I looked in the old alleyway, but I couldn't find her. And then when I was walking about, wondering where to look next, I bumped right into her!!! I screamed "ZEE!!" and she screamed "WHO THE HELL ARE YOU?!?!" and then I screamed "IT'S OLLY!" and then she screamed "HOLY CRAP DOLLY-OL WHAT THE HECK HAPPENED TO YOU?!?!" and then I explained for a very long time about how I got back. At first I was afraid she wouldn't believe me but she believed me.

I went back to her place with her. It's not a very nice place, really. It's cold and hard and there are creepy-crawlies that I don't know the names of in the dark corners of the place. Zero said Linda was out somewhere with her boyfriend I think and I was glad I wouldn't see her. I did see their older brother, though. I was like "Zee, you never told me you had a brother" and she said "I didn't know" And I couldn't tell if she meant she hadn't knows she never told me or that she had never known she'd had a brother. I guess I shouldn't think too hard, that's just Zee. I'm taller than her now. But I can get mosquito bites.

She gave me back my cross necklace that Lucas gave me, and I cried. I cried so hard, at it was the first time I really cried. I looked up to see if it were raining because of the tears on my face. And then afterwards I laughed because it was the first time I really cried.

I had some things to set straight, so me and Zero (she felt mostly responsible, so she said she'd come and wouldn't have it any other way) went over to Lief's house. We were greeted by Mrs. Brooks who recognized Zee but not me and went pale. It took longer to explain how I came back with Lief, he'd gotten hard and cold like Zee's caves since I last saw him. And his eyes were slate gray, but I can't remember if they used to be green or blue. He believed me in the end, though, and hugged me so tightly I felt my windpipe being crushed.

I'm in October's house, now, because I just can't stay with Zero in her home. I'm not mechanic anymore, and sleeping there hurts. I like October, but I'm starting to think I don't like being around him much. He looks at me like he can see right into me. Like he could pull me apart piece by piece and put me back together again. But that can't happen, because I'm human now. And I have toes! And toenails!! My toenails are orange right now. I had to rub off the orange on my fingernails because it felt too weird and I couldn't hold things.

I keep telling myself I'll go see Lucas tomorrow.
The day after tomorrow.
The day after that
But I'm too much of a scardy-cat.